The third source is "Wisdom from the world’s religions which inspires us in our ethical and spiritual life," but then numbers four and six seem to just be specific examples of wisdom from the world's religions.

Am I missing something?

I tend to see all this stuff through the lens of story, metaphor, and archetype.

Lately though, I've leaned more into ritual and prayer than I ever have. I light candles and pray to saints.

Today I even said to myself, "I trust that God is watching me. I trust that the Christ will guide me and that mother Mary will hold me."

I don't even know where that came from, I'm more rational than that. It terrifies me to say those things, I admit it. Despite logic they feel somehow true, which is bizarre and contradicts how I have thought all my life. I don't know if I believe them but some part of me does. When I say that I feel loved and protected in a way I rarely ever have since I was a little kid, and I envision an image of Mary holding me in her robe. It's like my child-self can stop being scared for once.

The thing is, I have struggled with mental health problems my whole life, and it has gotten very dark at times. I'm scared that saying these things could make me "crazy," or make me develop psychosis or something. I don't know if that's a rational fear or not.

I want this to be okay. I need a change so badly.