Hello everyone! I was raised catholic, attended Sunday school and did the whole confirmation into the church. But I’ve never agreed with the religion and have had many issues with there treatment. For a long time I’ve turned my back to God or any type of spiritual practice. I believe that’s partly due to how the Catholic Church made me feel about myself. Within the last few years I’ve lost my mom and my Dad all before turning 26 and having a son of my own. I’ve struggled a lot and been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and ptsd from the deaths. Recently it became very bad and I had no desire to live. I felt I was a terrible person and didn’t deserve to be a father or have happiness. I opened up and I started medication and things have been so much better. But I’m realizing their is a hole in my heart I’ve tried to fill with many different things and none have worked. After the new medication had kicked in and my depressive and anxious fog started to lift I begin to crave spiritual experience again. I found a UU congregation near me and I would love to attend but I’m very nervous due to how catholic mass also made me feel judged and that I was not a good person. I also came out gay as well recently. I feel I’m starting to grow and head in a positive direction but I’m really missing that faith piece.