i haven't found my pantheon, but i lament how many polytheistic and animistic religions christianity coercively wiped out (times it was non coercive are different). for some reason the idea of a pantheon just sits right with me. but honestly i really like even just the very idea of the world having one more person in modern times whos not just irreligious but actually believes in and doing rituals for many gods. is that valid reason to want to be polytheist? but right now i'm effectively irreligious going to a christian college bcoz i got my best scholarship package there. but i want to believe in a pantheon. somehow i want to believe and not be just another atheist. even if i am pretending to be christian anyway so the super christians on campus don't give me guff, i'd rather believe in a pantheon than no gods.