Hi all, I am not a UU member but I hope it's okay if I talk about some things I'm feeling. I just need some community and I am really struggling to find it. I had a friend who was a UU member, and it seemed like a very accepting place, so I thought I would at least reach out.

I started reading the Bible seriously for the first time about a month or so ago, and playing with Christianity has given me a sense of faith that I've never known before. I feel like it gives me a new kind of strength to help me move through life, and I feel like I can love myself now, because I know that God loves me. I've wanted to interact with other Christians in some kind of community, but honestly it feels like they don't want me.

To be blunt: I'm bisexual, and lets just say I'm pretty far left on a lot of issues. My family, and other Christians on reddit, don't really take kindly to either of those aspects of my personality, and they see God as in agreement with them. In reading the Bible though, I'm understanding God to be all-loving, compassionate, and generous... and a lot of people I've interacted with don't seem to agree. Others have said that God doesn't love me because of my sin, but I really don't understand how an omnibenevolent God's love can be conditional, or that He 'picks favorites' among us.

Reading the Bible makes me feel inspired, but interacting with Christians has made me feel like I and so many others are not worthy of God's love. I've felt dull all day, wondering whether I'm lying to myself, and God really doesn't love me.

Are there other queer people in the UU Church that have had similar experiences with Christianity? Has UU been helpful to you? Would you recommend joining UU? If so, what are some starting points or texts to consider?

Thank you for taking the time to read this and consider my situation, it really means a lot to be able to talk about this with lovingkindness. Stay well